I am S.A.M.
I was always the awkward kid in school.
I got bullied and laughed at a lot. I would have ‘friends’ who would later talk behind my back, make fun of me, and make me feel ugly and worthless. It was the same scenario from grade school to high school. I guess I would never know what was in me that always seemed to set off other kids to pick on me at that time. I remember those days when I had to go home crying to my grandmother telling her countless times that I didn’t want to go to school anymore. It was always terrifying and all I could do was mull over in silence and focus on making it on top of my class.
But it was never enough. I began to have issues also at home. Time would come that I would get burned out and everything would later crumble to pieces—that time when I felt I was worthless to everybody, even to myself. Even if I had a decent set of friends in high school, I kept making mistakes after another, which pushed almost all of them away. I lost my self-worth at that young age. I was so disappointed with myself that I stopped believing in the things that I could do.
Since then, all I had been doing was work hard to please everyone around me. When I first fell in love and things weren’t working the way it was supposed to be, I would always blame myself. In college, I met a lot of cool girls and I would always get insecure and then I would try to look and act like them. But it never boosted my confidence. It would be a couple of years later when I would soon realize that I had to change something in my life, otherwise I’d be miserable my whole life.
It began when I had my heart broken again at the same time when I was having major problems at home and in school and my insecurities were already swallowing me whole. I was so down that all I could do was run to the university church and pray as tears flooded my eyes. It took weeks before my eyes stopped swelling from crying and i finally had the courage to look myself in the mirror. Since then, I started clearing my mind and reliving my faith in God. I would later hang out more with friends that I trusted the most; I would go to the mall and buy things for myself and eat like there was no tomorrow. I began to improve myself physically and emotionally. I was now working hard to please no one but myself. I made big decisions that would alter my entire career path and life—all for the sake of following my heart and happiness. I began to revive my old hobbies and ignite my old passion for music and the arts. Most of all, I prayed—a lot. Until finally, one day, I woke up and I said to myself with utmost certainty: “I am happy.”
Since then, life became simpler. I would never have this feeling of happiness and contentment if not for realizing one of the most important piece of one’s life: self-worth.
Self-worth for me means two things. One, it is acceptance of the truth about your life and yourself—all the good and bad things that come with it. Acceptance of things you can’t change, and acceptance of who you are physically and emotionally. Two, it is having faith in yourself and in the things that you can do. Believe in yourself no matter what others may say about you. Always keep in mind that there are things you can do better than other people. Embrace your talents and your skills.
I once heard a priest say, “Kung anuman ang kakulangan mo bilang tao, gumagawa ang Diyos ng paraan para punuan ang mga kakulangan na to.”
All of us have our own insecurities. We always want to be better. We often don’t realize that being ourselves as we already are is already more than enough. I had an awful lot of insecurities back then—I hated my height ( I was so small that people often thought I was only 12), I wanted to be fair-skinned, I wanted my nose to be smaller, I wanted to be a better singer, and many many other things. I have learned to accept everything about me and believe in myself. Now, all I ever think is that even if there are things that I lack of or not good at, there are a lot of things I can do that other people can’t—besides, nobody is perfect right?
I am now thankful of the things that I have no matter how big or small, and I stopped complaining. All my life all I ever did was to complain how my life was such a mess and now I’ve learned to bring all my worries to God and trust that no matter how difficult things may get, as long as I believe in myself and trust God, everything will always be just fine.
This is what the I AM S.A.M. foundation is all about.
I am S.A.M. foundation is a non-profit organization that focuses on the empowerment and protection of women and children. SAM stands for Shakers and Movers. This organization believes that one who knows and embraces his/her own self-worth will lead a fruitful and joyous life, which in turn, may contribute greatly in creating a flourishing world and healthier societies.
I stand by this principle. As Gandhi said, “Be the change you want the world to see.” How could one make a difference in this world if he’s not even aware of his self-worth? Knowing and embracing your self-worth will make you stronger and happier, thus having a peace of mind will no longer be an adversity to achieve, which is often the case for most people in this modern, hectic, and strange world.
To learn more about I am S.A.M. foundation, visit their website at: http://iamsamfoundation.com or you may follow them on facebook: http://www.facebook.com/IamSAMfoundation/
I am wearing green and pink today as inspired by not only I am S.A.M. Foundation’s logo, but also their mission and principles which I wholeheartedly support.
Top from Folded and Hung | Skirt from Stilesclothing | Laceup booties from Fashioncookie Shoe Avenue | Random neon armcandy from Dalkin Emery
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